working for my soul

“When one’s body revolts against work, fatigue soon sets in; then one must not rest for it would be a victory for the body. When the body desires to rest, don’t; when the mind knows it ought to rest, do so, but one must know and distinguish language of body and mind, and be honest.” G. I. Gurdjieff

Friday, September 08, 2006

最大的勇氣

朋友Freda問到,甚麼是我所做過最有勇氣的事。當時想不起,想是19歲那年離家出走吧。

今天早上5時許醒來,突然找到答案。
活著!

去年今日,應該是我的死期才對。當時活下來就是因為William,以為再等一會就可以。只是為了這一點希望。

現在,這希望經已消失了。為何我仍要活著呢?!

聽到一首叫人心庝的歌,忘記了歌名,歌手好像是曹永廉。好像是「你故意使我難過」吧。