working for my soul

“When one’s body revolts against work, fatigue soon sets in; then one must not rest for it would be a victory for the body. When the body desires to rest, don’t; when the mind knows it ought to rest, do so, but one must know and distinguish language of body and mind, and be honest.” G. I. Gurdjieff

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

身體的痛楚從未減少過,昨晚上Chakra Yoga不但痛,而且更感到呼吸困難,肌肉緊張,可見我對現實世界依然執著、認同,要不然我那來痛楚。這痛楚為我帶來的最大益處是:「記得自己」。

今早四時多已醒來了,看到日出,很紅的天漸漸變淡,然後是藍天。這樣的天我曾經看過,有的是幸福,有的是痛楚。

心很痛,我的心依然很痛,突然有一種偷生的感覺。

到底,我可能只是一頭羊,我總在騙自己。我幹嘛要醒來呢?
有甚麼比快樂的活在樂園裡更好?